Ah, Mansel. He was my old landlord, a top bloke and a good mate. He was sixty-one years old, and died in his sleep at home, thankfully without having to endure months or possibly years of treatment which would have made him immobile and dependent on others. Cancer is a bastard. Mansel was a star. We shared a lot in common; a desire for social justice, a love of travel, a fear of flying, the odd glass of vino tinto, Cuban music, and a deep distrust of red tape and everything bureaucratic. The old git has got the perfect resting place; in the churchyard of Stoke Gabriel, a stones throw away from the ancient yew tree, overlooking the millpond and the sloping patchwork hills which are unmistakeably English. It's idyllic. At his funeral on Friday I delivered a short eulogy and read the poem of the unknown soldier. I had read it at my father's funeral four years ago. It is how I feel about death:
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am the silent winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn rain
When you awaken in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there, I did not die.
I prefer funerals to weddings anyday, and I've often said so. Firstly you don't have to pretend to be happy. You don't have to talk to people of you don't want to, and you don't have to take a gift. The buffet is usually better too. Is it because there is one less person to worry about? The budget stretches just that little bit further, you see...
At the Imperial Hotel in Torquay I attended the wedding of an old friend who I've known since we lived and worked in London together. We were both nineteen years old. Suddenly there she was on Saturday looking beautiful, radiant and euphoric. On the other hand I was stood there, now single, long haired, suited, baggy eyed, feeling slightly worse for wear from Mansel's wake the night before (it went on until 3am). Many faces from my old life in London were there, all of them questioning why I'm no longer career minded. To them I must seem like a bit of a drop out. However I do love having a simple life, and my life in here in Devon offers everything I've wished for. I have the time to write, the beach and the moorland nearby, good friends, a great little town to live in, my guitar and my camera. That's it. It's all I need. It is tempting to go out gigging again but then I think of tiresome long distance driving, greedy and dishonest agents, junk food and fuel prices. Then I soon come back to my senses.
On Sunday I attended The Writing on the Wall at the Flavel Centre in Dartmouth. An alternative history of our country given by The Godfather himself: Tony Benn. And that brilliant folk singer Roy Bailey. It's the first time I've heard Benn give any public talks and he doesn't disappoint. God bless him; he's well over eighty years old, he has twice my energy and he's spot on with almost everything he speaks about. When he speaks, I hear the truth. It's not every day you get to meet a man who's served in three cabinet posts in government, prompted a major change in the hereditary peerage system, met Gandhi, headed the peace movement ahead of the Iraq invasion, and who continues to inspire and provoke. He said yesterday that he doesn't really see himself as a harmless old gentlemen. He says he got two death threats last year and he was thrilled.




